Insomnia

Sleep. It’s one of those things that it’s so easy to take for granted- until you’re not getting it. We go through the day, we get tired, we go to sleep. Right? But then, why have I been having trouble getting to sleep of late? Every day, I get to feeling exhausted, and I’m thinking “Man, I can’t wait to get home and get some sleep.” But then I can’t. Well, I do eventually, but I end up with not enough sleep.

What do I do when I’m lying there, bored out of my mind? Do I just lie there, hoping that the restlessness in me will subside? Or do I get up and do something? Only I can’t really do much of anything because I’m exhausted. I could just end up feeding more stimulation into my being, making my restlessness worse.

I know why I’m on edge. Unfortunately, there seems to be nothing I can do about that right now. Trying to resolve things sometimes only makes them worse. Swimming, meditation and walking will hopefully make things better.

Back in May I was also suffering from insomnia. A friend of mine came over a couple of evenings, and we were hanging out, having a good time. But on the second evening, when she noticed how tired I was she became all worried, thinking that she was abusing my hospitality by keeping me up past my bedtime, etc., etc. What I should have explained, had my head been clearer, was that I was in no hurry to face the nightly battle with insomnia. If I wasn’t going to sleep, I thought, I might as well have some fun not sleeping. Mind you, I also think that this friend is a little too inclined to worry about things. If it hadn’t been that, it might have been something else. I worry too much too, though. That might help to explain why I’m not sleeping very well.